Somethings going wrong with me. I feel like I am annoying, disgusting, disturbing.. as long as something not good. Yet i don't know what the reason. I feel like each word i spoke out is annoying other ppl.. I don't know. I try to be optimistic but I always fail to do it. 

I always hope someone can understand me well, but i know i should overcome it myself but not always hoping others understand me. Thats not the correct way i know i know.


戴上不真实的面具，为的是隐瞒自己的憔悴。
我的伪装，欺骗了大家，却欺骗不了自己。
我的心墙，一层又一层地盖上去，为的是保护自己。
老是想找个靠岸，但是永远未抵达而畏缩，因为种种的不信任。
种种的焦虑和不安，让我失去安全感。

#畏缩永远是一种逃避，让你释放暂时的焦虑。
与其选择逃避，不如勇敢面对。#

i broke promise again.

can i  wanton for 1 minute?