A Step Forward...

累了

2011-12-29T09:24:00.000+08:00

习惯自己独来独往，有时觉得这样的生活更适合自己。

大学朋友，怎么也比不上从小认识的朋友更了解自己。

长大了交的朋友，不再是心比心，因为你根本无法了解他人到底在想什么。

有时宁愿没朋友，也不想有自私的朋友存在。

以前就算不爽对方，至少不用日夜相对，因为还有自己的家当避难所。隔天见面了就不当一回事了。

有时候不明白，朋友真正的意义，到底是朋友所说的只是拿来利用而已。

大学的朋友，可以很精彩，也可以很复杂。

我真的好累了。。

我只想找个安静的地方安眠地睡一觉，不想被谁打扰。

Lovely Christmas

2011-12-27T13:56:00.001+08:00

Celebrate Christmas with a bunch of falculty friends at Portuguese Village, Melaka.

My previous time of count down was few years ago, at Sunway Pyramid.

The situation is just same, snow spray war!

but this year celebrate in rain. So umbrella become defending tool. lol

Still I have a sweet moment with the sweet one. =)

All the houses are decorated by the Portuguese..

Some get sponsor such as Oat Crunch, my favourite biscuit.

This was taken last year at Midvalley. 1 year past in a blink of eye.

moody

2011-12-22T10:15:00.000+08:00

I was totally not in mood. My limit really reach the maximum yesterday night.
I no understand why such a simple basic moral, that even a 7 years old kid understand, but a adult that is high educated no understand. Face problem? or your problem?

I am trying hard to forgot and forgive.

幸福

2011-12-19T09:41:00.000+08:00

we have our sweet anniversary last few weeks.

The photo was taken during my brother's wedding dinner.

幸福没有捷径,只有经营

December breeze

2011-12-19T09:21:00.002+08:00

I start to worry when 3rd year we have to stay outside..

We have no transport, which is the main problem to us..

Maybe I will eat alone more often since the housemates all are quite lazy to go out for meal.. But some are cooking their own..

Maybe I will cook often too, but it is impossible for me to cook everyday..

Staying alone for a weekend, I was freaking freedom, though it will be a boring weekend.

But sometimes I need my privacy time without disturbing..

I went to work last saturday, work as data entry in a friend's uncle's office.

The salary was rm8 per hour, sound interesting for everyone.

But if I have to face laptop screen from 10am to 10pm. It definitely not a good idea.

When reach around 6pm, I request to stop and I wanna go back, cause my eyes is so tiring.

But then I have no car to go back. poor thing. =.=

After boss saw us like dieing, he insists to increase from rm8 to rm16 per hour after 7pm.

It sound more interesting when we have free kfc set to eat.

Finally I back on 9pm..though haven't complete the amount that required.

I think this is the last time, cause for my opinion, if my short sightness increase, I have to pay more to buy a pair of glasses. It doesn't worth at all right.

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year around corner!

Perhaps I will going to Portuguese Village to countdown for Christmas if there is no obstacles.

and I bought a big pack of Marsh Mallow for our snack! hehe

Yesterday went old Jusco alone. Had bougth some goodies.

Luckily my dinner I don't have to walk alone to da bao again, cause bf was accompany me for my dinner. =)

I start lazy to invite anyone out for meal since they barely will say yes. I also no understand why they can be so save. But I prefer take good care of my health first.

I asking them not to cook tap water for their drinking water but they felt buying water is too expensive.

Ah better take care myself first before others. i will only give advice to ppl that I really care.

That's all for my boring life.

KOREA TOP DRAMA

2011-09-03T13:04:00.000+08:00

Long time I didn't watch Korean drama..

Last last time I watched was at tv drama series..

I still more prefer action drama more than taiwan idol drama!

Korean one of the best drama in 2009, 2010, 2011..

Though I bit late, XD

Lee Byung Hun and Kim Tae Hee

Kim Seung Woo and Kim So Yeon

The trailer about IRIS.

They make IRIS into movie too, but still watch drama more precise. hehe

Read synopsis here .

Later on, I watch another drama -ATHENA

It has co-relation with IRIS

The similarities is the both ANTHENA and IRIS are terror groups for Korea.

Shortly, both are about how NSS and NTS show their role in protecting their country from terrors.

There is still some mystery behind these two drama, who is Mr Black that leads these two IRIS and ATHENA?

Guess all the mystery will discover in IRIS 2!

Still waiting for it!

Lastly, enjoy OST of << Love of Iris >>

Forever 21

2011-08-04T19:11:00.000+08:00

I'm officially 21 years old . . ^^

Thanks for all lovely wishes!

I felt lot of love from you all!

This year celebrate my birthday with my dear and family.

Sweet and warm birthday, though it is simple. ^^

And bought a big present for myself, after got my salary!

as a rewards for myself too. =)))

I want to be independent!

My birthday also a shopping walkathon..

Forgot about my work and just enjoy with darling!

First venue - lowyat plaza , surveying whole plaza to get the best price for my Ace.

It takes a lot of time! The price was different accordingly.

As slim as iPhone. I love it. =)

Suitable for medium user like me.

If you desire a better one, get galaxy s2, it wouldn't disappointing you.

Of cz the price much more different. =)

After that, having lunch at times square - Sushi king

Not tasty afterall, compare to Osaka. ^^

and bad service. But we don't care that much cz we were craving for food that time.

Walking to Pavilion from times square.. the distance was... bit near bit far. >.<

Shop every shop of pavilion.. Next go to fehrenheit 88. but my handphone out of battery.

Back home, and celebrated with family, a blue berry cheese cake. =)

we look like a trunk like an apple. LOL environment friendly.

So, my birthday was full of love just because of you all. =))

Thanks for all lovely present.

Working working..

2011-07-10T22:50:00.001+08:00

Dear all friends..

Now I having a very long semester break for 4 months! ya 4 months!
out of the 3 months I have being working at wisma Hai-O as a data entry clerk.
Ya first time in my life working at office, wearing formal and high heel, officially an office girl.
The working time is from 9am to 5.30pm with 5 and half day!

Here to share little my working mood being working there for 1 month.
It is quite a very sucks company. Yea you wouldn't believe until you work there..
What I means sucks is about the paid and working scope..
2 workers had been resigned within 1 months I working there and a new young teenage come in.
My job is easy yet complicated cz of the steps that I need to memorise..
I need to post invoice everyday, check stock every month. Yea it sound easy but how if handle 25 branch whole Malaysia? hahaha.
Need to call the branches' assistant if have any problems.. Quite nervous at the beginning cz keep on doing mistake and feel embarrassing.. Sometimes just simple key wrong number thought they wouldn't know but end of month account department will find you that you had key wrong invoice number, type of packing, supplier code..
My job is like never end especially recently I start handle one more new branch at Kuala Selangor. I use around 3 hrs to help my executive posting more than 60 invoices. @.@ end up my job accumulate more.
Work like a machine, rest and eat kit kat. =.=
Not really enjoy at there, but just want to pass my days at there by earning some pocket money and long holidays as my office is so near my house which take less than 5 minutes.
I have lot of things want to buy and I want to travel with my beloved.
we both now working hard to keep some pocket money for our small trip.
But lot of obstacles perhaps we can travelling smoothly. ^^ I can't wait it!

Miss this year Bon odori again.. sob

Uni life~

2011-03-27T19:14:00.000+08:00

Left 1 month final exam going to start, this means sem2 is going to END!
A long holiday will going to start! What should I do in this holiday? Work? Camp? Being a lazy bug in house?

But whatever it is, seriously I need some rest.
Life here is never easy. For those study oversea / over state u would know.
The time you are stress out of study, u miss home.
The time you are alone, u miss home.
Still, home is the best.

I am a lucky girl, that I met someone that I really so in love with.
We come from same hometown, study in same uni.
I start to believe that fate bring us stay together and falling in love.
I'm no longer alone. You're just like part of my life.
We always the best supporter of each other.
My life here wouldn't be perfect without you.

Most of our time is buried with bunch of homeworks and assignments.
we rarely have time to hang out together.
Today only I realised this friday is 1/4. It's another month again. =)))
I can't wait the day to come and our date that night. ^.^

Test 1 is over and test 2 is coming around corner.
I get my test 1 result. That was not so bad. =)))
My hard work had paid off. I will continue the hardship.
Gambateh to myself for test 2.

I so miss all my friends and family!

Depress

2011-03-02T19:57:00.000+08:00

I'm so depress sometimes..

~ I want to go back home but have to wait long hour for bus.

~ I want to online but the hostel line is so sucks.

~ I want to eat something nice sometimes but I have to go until MMU corner

~ I want to play badminton but I have no transport cz I dunwan sit late night bus..

~ I want to go walk walk and I have to sit long hour public bus and change bus.

Is getting bored with the life here..

Appreciate

2011-02-25T23:15:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday was a dark day. One of my course mate involve in serious accident and passed away.

We man really don't know what will happening to us at the next second..

We don't know when Lord will take us go..

2 days before the accident, he was coming to class,

few hours before accident, he was still on Facebook.

Few hours after accident, he leave us forever.

Life is just so fragile. That's why we always said appreciate, appreciate n appreciate everything that u had now.

But still, sometimes, we argue for a small matter. Is that worth it? Not at all.

That's what I learning now- learning to being tolerance and understanding.

I'm kinda emotional nowadays, it's not usual me. I'm lost.

2 test on monday make me nervous as I haven't get ready n no mood to read both of them.

Still, I forcing myself to study and study.

Life here always craving for food, busy life that always make me miss home.

Friends surround yet the friends who can share your problems is so rare.

"没有所谓的适不适合，只有懂得珍惜和不珍惜。"

心的距离

2010-11-16T20:01:00.001+08:00

有一天

一个有智慧的教授问他的学生：

“为什么人生气时说话用喊的?”

所有的学生都想了很久

其中有一个学生说：

“因为我们丧失了冷静..所以我们会用喊的”

“但是为什么别人就在你旁边而已

你还是用喊的

难道不能小声的说吗?

为什么总是要用喊的?”

教授又问

几乎所有的学生都七嘴八舌的说了一堆

但是没有一个答案是让教授满意的

最后教授解释说：

“当两个人在生气的时候

心的距离是很远的

而为了掩盖当中的距离使对方能够听见

于是必须用喊的

但是在喊的同时人会更生气

更生气距离就更远

距离更远就又要喊更大声……”

教授接着继续说：

“而当两个人在相恋时会怎么样呢?

情况刚好相反

不但不会用喊的

而且说话都很轻声细语

为什么?

因为他们的心很接近

心与心之间几乎没有距离

所以相恋中的两个人通常是耳语式的说话

但是心中的爱因而更深

到后来根本不需要言语

只用眼神就可以传情

而那时心与心之间早已经没有所谓的距离了……”

最后教授做了一个结论：

“当两个人争吵时

不要让心的距离变远

更不要说些让心距离更远的话

自然的过了几天

等要心的距离已经比较没有那么远时

再好好的说吧！”

I grab this article from fb and I felt its so true and want to share with u all..

When You are angry with someone..

The distance becomes further and further..

This is the most dangerous state..

Don't let anger control your mind..

Stay calm when you are in fire..

After sometimes, when you feel better,

discuss the problem together in good condition..

You will found that the result will be different..

低落

2010-11-15T19:13:00.000+08:00

不知道是什么心情把我带来这里，

怎么越是累，就越睡不着。

不晓得是睡不着或者不想睡。

或者在期待着什么。

突然好想回家。

不是我在这里不开心。

可能隐形的压力快把我跨到了。

怎么越累，越是胡思乱想，

怎么越胡思乱想，心情越更加低落？

怎么当我心情低落，越觉得寂寞？

怎么我越觉得寂寞，越想要人家安慰？

怎么我想你安慰时，你却心不在焉？

怎么我越想倾诉时，越不懂得要如何表达我的心情？

为何我有好多的话想要说出口，可是害怕祸从口出。

好多话停留在矛盾的轨道，

怕失去，也害怕过去。

林忆莲的歌表达了我的心情：

我怕时间太快，不够将你看仔细，

我怕时间太慢，日夜担心失去你，

恨不得一夜之间白头

Music & Exam

2010-11-10T09:13:00.000+08:00

I love Classic song

It just so nice when U listen it at late night.

Who said Old song just for old people? XD

I just feel so relax when listening to all the songs.

Its so sweet when someone sing for me. haha

Final preparation for Final!

All the best for all my friends.

Work hard and work smart!

~Try my best to achieve the best~

calm down

2010-10-22T11:49:00.000+08:00

I'm wasting my time online for nothing..
Even though I still have a long report to pass up next week.
Just want to blank my mind.. stop thinking anymore and rest..
Obstacles come to me one by one.. time by time..
Its time to stay strong and brave..

I was thinking, what happening to my family?
What makes everyone mad?

Somehow I have thought that stay far from klang has advantages.
prevent crash..
Missing u all in my heart.

Thanks wen for calling me,
I becomes a very weak expresser. I don't know how to express my feeling and problems.
I hope to meet u now.

I meet a great friend here,
Thanks accompany me when I'm in the down core,
U are my great supporter always.
U trying to make me smile, yes u did.

Alone in the house, everyone having class.
facing the laptop, play bejeweled bilitz,
searching how's going on my friend in fb.
Loneliness feeling.. accompany with music.

请让我放肆一分钟，

把所有不愉快的事情化成眼泪流出来。

smile =)

2010-10-17T14:26:00.000+08:00

"smiling doesn't always mean u are happy, it can just simply to show that u are a strong person..''

I like this quote very much.. Smile not necessary u are a happy person. Even u face some problems, face it with smiling but not anger.. Smile always, even u are not happy..

Don't put sad or angry emotions on ur face always.. even u hope someone understand ur feeling at that moment.. If u do so, u are just so immature and not rasional.. =)

Take a deep breath and think back at the moment u are angry.. Is it worth for u to angry about? The answer normally is NO. Don't let anger control ur mind.. Try calm down before u take any action that will make u regret..

~a letter for myself~

加油

2010-10-13T20:14:00.000+08:00

今天终于好好地照照镜子，

渐渐发现自己的脸上越来越憔悴。

差点吓了眼前的自己。

我好想放下手上的所有东西，去远远的地方散心。

加油～

Sunday

2010-10-03T20:10:00.000+08:00

After busying for weeks, finally I can have a lil rest..

I done my assignment report, Mooncake Festival is over..

3 assignments and 1 long report to go..

Talk about the yesterday Mooncake Festival..

There are 10 games and I am one of a game's helper of this festival.

Kinda tiring cz we just given 10 minutes to have our dinner..

Seriously I having a lot of fun yesterday. ^.^

But too sad cz raining heavily and we can't take tanglung outdoor..

I heard something big shock news from my family..

I hope I can go back right now. I miss my home.

Count down 5 days more to home sweet home..

I now really need work more hard to catch up my study..

BENE 1133!! I really not understand wth the lecturer teaching..

BENC 1133!! U are so complicated la..

Final exam is around the corner.. ADD OIL!!

中秋节快乐

2010-09-22T18:03:00.000+08:00

中秋节快乐！第一次不是在家过中秋～

独在异乡为异客，每逢佳节倍思亲。

这句话说的好对啊。。虽然我不是在国外。

今年庆祝了好多次的中秋。

亲戚，朋友，家人庆祝了。。

好怀念小时候提着灯笼，点着蜡烛的日子。

长大了的我们，渐渐地忘记了小时候的玩意。。

围绕着我们的是做不完的功课和笔记。

我好想好想再次提灯笼！

好多未完成的功课待我去作，

怎么大学所谓的享受竟是如此的生活。

忙碌，是最佳形容我的生活。

乏味的生活，还要耐四年呢。

没后悔的时，我认识好多朋友。

体验了好多东西，也领悟了许多。

学会了独立，学会了关心，

不管对家人或朋友。

连续失眠了三夜，

在床上滚来滚去，脑袋好像没休息过。

天气太热是最大其一原因。

虽然是真的很累，就是睡不着。

好像不知不觉慢慢地适应这种生活。

～中秋节快乐～

say Good bye to Klang again..

2010-09-19T13:19:00.000+08:00

I just...
don't want back to the study life right now..
want more holidays!

A lot of pending works waiting me to do..
A lot of homeworks that I don't know how to do and helpless..

I start to feel the pressure.. I am lag behind cz I can't understand what the lecturer teach.

I'm happy that I meet almost all of my good friends in this holidays..
The things that I do without regret in this holidays. ^^
Mei jee!! U owe me one meal! cz u are busy and can't meet up with me!
X.wen!! See u again two weeks later and we go walk pasar malam again. =)

I thought I want to find back the spirit and soul..
But seriously I'm fail. That's why now I'm fear to face it again.
I just.. don't want back to the study life so soon.

Say good bye to Klang again..

伤口

2010-09-16T22:43:00.000+08:00

几时开始，那种感觉又再次侵犯我。。

仿佛一个巨大的石头，压在我的心中。

好像把它释放出来，却找不到方法。

原来还是那么在意，

原来刻意不去在意，

我，此时此刻，

好想一个人冷静下来，

好像大声地呐喊。

Outing

2010-09-13T23:19:00.000+08:00

I think I'm mad.
I sleep at 4am yesterday.. I can't sleep n I don't know why.
I keep on rolling on my bed. It's suffer, forcing myself to sleep..
My mind like kept on functioning.. without my control.
A lot of things come out in my mind..

I wake at 8am. Taking my mum out..
Go sing k with f6 classmates. For the first time I almost fall asleep in k room. LOL
Most of the new songs I don't know sing. I just know sing the old songs..
After sing k continue with badminton..
For the first, I seems in bad condition. Maybe too long time I didn't play..
I forget to bring back my shoes from Malacca.. So I play with kaki ayam. =.=
The feeling after exercise and sweating is so goood. haha

Then we have out dinner at BBQ steamboat buffer..
I easy to full don't know why.. I still prefer 88 steamboat. ^^
Oh ya.. Most of the friends had found their guardian angels in their uni..
Congratz and I happy for u all too. ^^

My holidays just left around 6 days to go..
Why time pass so so so fast..
I haven't find my spirit back.. I haven't prepared myself!

Happy Birthday to ah Guan!
My classmates since f4 to f6.
Hope u find ur angel soon. ^^

Movie

2010-09-05T17:44:00.000+08:00

Yesterday watch Step up 3 with xiao wen & yee wei.

It was few months ago I step into cinema!

Cz we have to go until Pahlawan Dataran, which very inconvenient for us..

I know most of u all had been watch this movie..

Woo It just sooooo cooool!

A nice movie to recommend!

My rm13 is not wasted. LOL

The two main characters in this movie- Rick Malambri (left) and Sharni Vinson (right).

one word to describe- Awesome !

I FEEL GOOD

2010-09-04T00:01:00.000+08:00

I FEEL GOOD~

The feeling of Home Sweet Home is soooo GOOD~
I can do many many things in these coming two weeks holiday!
I no need wake so early to rush bus..
I no need rebut bus! ( the most happiest thing! )
I no need eat curry chicken anymore.
I no need wash my clothes which I can use washing machine in my hz!
I no need cook water, carry 5 + 1.5litre water from ground floor to 4th floor every 1,2 days which gonna kill me!
I no need eat maggi mee anymore!

But this two holidays have a lot of homework and assignments to do..
Preparing for midterm exam.. trying to catch up those lag behind chapter..
Of cz spend my time with Friends & Family!!
Movies.. Sing k.. Shopping.. Gathering.. Mamak.. Pasar Malam..
and of cz not left out klang food- Bah Kut Teh!

Woohoo~

Tonite will be a Good Night. =)

Let's Party

2010-08-29T21:18:00.000+08:00

~Friday~

Having class on morning until 12.30pm.. After that having lunch at Bunga Raya..

Together with 5 ppls- lea boon, maria, chain ni, cai li & me..

Going to Aeon nearby Malacca Central there..

Great time start.. SHOPPING

We are shop to prepare our Prom night stuff.. Shoes.. Cosmetic.. Accessories..

After walk the whole Shoes Street, I really can't even aim a shoes I really like it..

I almost fed up and the time I felt don't want to go the Prom ady..

But I just too embrace cz most of my frens and seniors keep on persuade me go..

Until around 8pm finally I aim 1 high heel! Which I like it so much~ but I so dislike the price. =/

deng deng..

first time wearing 3 inch high heels.. kinda tough for me.. I like most the shinning part!

Before that we having lunch at "little Taiwan".. Lucky the food are not little.. quite worth compare with others restaurant..

Photo taken while waiting for the food.. Everyone look so hungry..

~yummy~ 1 of the 2 sets that we order.. Not bad~

The worst part is when we get know that we miss the last bus! We have to take taxi again!!

The time just 9pm++.. We just late for few minutes!!

By the way, still reached hostel safely..

~Saturday~

Prom Night start!

Let's Party~

1st time in my life going Prom Night.. which also "forced" by my friends.. Haha by the way I have a lot of fun there..

Venue: Renaissance Hotel (5 Star)

~booklet and souvenir~

~Me and my roomate~

The two beside me is my direct seniors!! They are so cute~

cheers ^ ^

~with friends~

I like this photo much!

Let's intro a friend of mine, her name is Maria Kim Kim~

Let's see before and after make up of her.

Before

After

Haha! See the amazing of make up! I should video it down when she dance "No Body". Freaking Sexy man. Haha!! She is the one who keep persuade me go to the Prom Night! wahaha

I like the free dance part a lot! Crazy like no body business.. haha just the stage game part let me almost fall asleep..

I think everyone of us enjoy this crazy Prom Night. =)

Thanks to See Ying suggest the photo and photo edit software for me. =)

need rest!!

2010-08-25T23:08:00.000+08:00

What a lazy night.. After work hard continuously for few days.. after test 2 is over..
phew.. finally I can relax a bit.. a bit only cz I still got math quiz tomorrow! But I haven't touch yet.. cz I'm just so lazy.. keep on loading the music, today line is freaking fast compare to few days ago!!

I NEED REST !!

8 days to go..

holiday count down

2010-08-23T23:42:00.002+08:00

opps 1st time constantly blogging continuously for 3 days. Haha
okay count down days back to hometown is around 10 days! Wow.. can't wait to go back home!
Home Sweet Home is so true..
Thinking to find a part time job during this coming 2 weeks holiday.. any recommend? as long as I can earn some pocket money for what I had spent this 1 month.. I NEED $$$$!!
At the same time I need rest too! Everyday being a night ghost and early bird at the next day is so suffer.. Soon u can visit me at Zoo Melaka, with the new species panda. >.<
Tomorrow I have BENE 1133 test.. Wish me luck. ^^ Well preparing doesn't mean can answer all the questions.. that's what I worry always..
Today maths tutorial class.. I really fed up with the lecturer.. I don't know why even a simple basic calculation He can't manage to solve it.. I very confirm that the answer is wrong.. haiz but what can I do? I wonder he will blacklist we all chinese if we keep argueing with him. haha.. He somemore ask me to see him to discuss about the silly question but I really fed up to explain again.. Straightly go back after finish class without bothering him. ( bad student ) I wonder I will fail my math if he continue to teach us.. I so miss my form 6 math T teacher Pn Chong!! She is much more better than him!! so much!!
By the way, we have to be independent rather than depend on the lecturer.. Otherwise....

11.48pm now. Sleep earlier everyone~
Good Nitez..

A productive day

2010-08-23T01:30:00.000+08:00

Today is a productive day! I manage to revise all the topics cover in test !

The sunday here is so boring.. If I am at Klang, maybe I should be somewhere outside or spend the time with family. But here, I face book , Facebook and face wall everyday.. Oh such a boring Sunday..

This Tuesday and Wednesday going to have test1 which cover 15marks in final exam. I am less nervous compare to Computer Programming test last week. I get know from my housemate that many of us did badly in the exam. So I wonder I can pass the test or not. Seriously, I don't like this subject. I don't understand C language, C language don't understand me.. Maybe I just understand normal language.. LOL what the shit I talking about.. In conclusion, this subject is just so complicated.

I get back my quiz paper, I did some silly mistake causing I lost some marks there, while my other friends get full marks for that paper. I should work more harder and less careless next time.. less Facebook and face more book. LOL talking shit again..

Today no food sold here at afternoon.. that means I need to choose either cook myself, go out da bao or "eat myself".. In the end, maggi mee as lunch again.. I HATE IT!! Then I take my dinner at cafe here as usual.. When only I can shift to Bunga Raya?? I really suffer with the food here.. Haizzzzzz...I wonder I lost how many pounds since I came to here?? Oh noooo..

No even a chinese nor english newspaper is sold here.. I am just like a katak bawah tempurung.. So I had to read through internet. But the line here is fucking slow.. I kept pressing the F5 button.. WTH. Free of charge always provide this kind of fucking service..

1.28am now.. Good Night peeps..

mixture of thinking

2010-08-22T02:13:00.000+08:00

I miss my HOME.

For the first time i didnt go back for 3 weeks. ( add in next week ).. I want to go back!!

Everything so fas still good.. I miss my friends so much.. doing well there? Once a while I always felt so helpless when I need help, especially in emotional. When I felt the whole world ignoring me.. when nostalgia comes to me again.. When I am in the down core.. I am alone, facing it with brave. I tell myself, I must be strong. I need more confident, I need more motivation.. My mood always upside down.. Guess my friends around me know it.. When I am happy, I happy. When I am low mood, I silent myself.. I trying to mix with all the friends here. But don't know why, there is a gap. I know is my problem, that trying to protect myself.. I need a very patient listener listen to me always.. I seldom express my feeling to my friends here as i think thats just a small problem and i don't know where should I start my story.. Most important is I cant find a ppl to share my feelings with. Maybe everything still so new to me, that I need time to adapt with it. I am not a good expresser.. The one know me well must be my old friends.. I miss them, so much. I so happy when they came to visit me and travelling around. I felt the warm from my hometown. I like they call me to chat, I felt I was with them. I hope my family came here visit me and enjoy the night street of Malacca. =)

Oh ya I really like the night street here. Maybe I just too long time didnt come out at so late. I wish I have a car, then I can stay longer at there, enjoy the night street and night tea with friends. I like the riuh rendah street. =) I miss mamak time with friends after badminton every friday. Of cz I miss badminton too. First time I play with new friends here, not really enjoy but I like the feeling after sport! Maybe I not that close with most of them. I miss the moment play with my form6 friends. =) How do u do guys?

I am not active in cocuriculum here. Compare to my form6 life, it is so much different. So I am inactive here. I am a 100% full time student. Thats why I felt my uni life now is a constant graph. I want to be active, but the spirit doesn't come to me. I want the spirit back! My hostel life here is sucks, nothing big different with jail life. No outdoor activities, every night stay in the small small house. No much uni activities here, or maybe I didn't involve myself. I am just a very very normal student. I doesn't mean I want to be special. Just that my life now is so colourless. I need someone, something or other else that can brighten my life. LOL I always low profile bcause I didn't join much friends at here. Sometimes I just don't like to talk too much and I don't know why. After 1 months life here, I found that I am getting understand my friends around. Maybe I am just too sensitive with some of their tone, words and body language, that bring some bad message to me. For me, all these small action can exhibit someone true personality that they never know. Of cz I didn't just look at the weakness side. I don't like those that just perfunctorily listen at u but they actually didn't concentrate with what u are saying.. After sometime, when the same topic repeat again, they give the reaction "is it?" or "really?". The feeling is not good, just like my words doesn't gave any meaning to u. I am talking to the air. =(

I am so glad that when I need a listener, u all are willing to lend me ur ears. I am touch + happy. Although sometimes I will express my anger to u all. haha. Actually... I have so many things to say.. I am not a good photographer so don't expect my post will have any nice photo. lol. but i do wish i have a camera!! When only I able to buy it with my own? I want to capture the happy moment in my life. =) I wish I can learn some photography skill. haha. I admire those can take really nice photo shoot. =)

2.10am now.. start feeling dizzy.. Need to stop here and continue only next time. tonight will be a good night. =) Good night everyone.

Random trip

2010-08-02T20:25:00.001+08:00

31/7/2010

One day lepak at Malacca town~ with 4 girl friends. Let me introduce...

from left : Maria, Siti, Fatimah & Tfung

Maria & me is came from same falculty, while Siti is from Fkp and Tfung is from Ftmk.

7am in the morning, morning call Maria, in case she can't wake up. We take 8am bus Tuah to Malacca centrral, reached Malacca town around 9.30am.

I not sure whether Malaccan always wake late or they seldom consume their breakfast outside, cz many of the kopitiam open only after 10am..So without much investigation around, we enter a chicken rice ball shop at the corner.

chicken rice ball

Overall ok ok la.. Out of expectation. But due to Maria is too hungry, what we ate also consider tasty.

Next we continue to a kopitiam to eat some nyonya kuih.

Different type of Nyonya kuih..

We also order a bowl of cendol. Awesome!

compare to Klang cendol, Malacca one is nicer. LOL

We continue our journey~ The time most of the shop already open..

small muzium of baba & nyonya

some of the photo taken in antique shop~

No forget to stop at jonker 88 shop to eat ice kacang too! but too bad no photo taken cz we all are too thirsty. hahaha.

Next, move on to A'Famosa..

Siti & Fatimah

We climb until the top of the stairs under HOT SUN! A lot of photo taken~

such a beautiful trishaw!

Maria bully me. >.

crowded with peoples~

cheers~

view from top of A'Famosa~

Then we go to Mahkota Parade.. We consume our lunch at Station Kopitiam. Poor services and food. =.=!

After that, we go to Carefour which is just situated beside Mahkota Parade. So so tired but yet so enjoy. haha..

Here special thanks to my two friends whose came from Klang travel to Malacca & visit me.

Thanks u guys the nice present and I like it so much! The time we meet are too short!

Next time u all must come visit me again! Waiting u all ya!

U both really awesome! back packing travel is so fun right! i want too!

yee wei, me and xiao wen

Hope to see you all again at Malacca..

uni life

2010-07-30T23:19:00.000+08:00

Enter 4th week of Uni life.. suddenly felt like come here for so long time ady..
met a lot of new friends from every edge of Malaysia even foreign country..
let me introduce my roomate, i used to call her siti and i am fatimah. LOL
We have fate to meet together during registration day.. that time we are alone, she just sit beside me.
then we start to chit chat and we decide to register to stay same room.
She is a nice girl, funny and kind. hahaha.

I have too many to write.. MHS, camp, class..
but always write half way don;t know how to continue..
Everyday wake at 7am.. sleep at 11,12am..
Seriously many changes in my lifestyle..
from washing machine to hand wash..
from chinese food to malay food everyday..
from driving to walking every day in campus..
from single bed to double decker bed..

When talking about the life here, i don;t know why we always need to rebut-rebut..
we rebut to take bus ( cz the seat is limited, if not u have to wait for next bus to come )
we rebut for food ( too many crowded to cafe1 cz others cafe a as they said are so dirty and tasteless )
we don't know what is 'queue up'. this is the one most 'pek chek' here..
everything must be fast if not u will left behind. LOL
In the cafe, u can see flies everywhere.
even in classroom also got flies, really getting mad cz it is so annoying.

I learnt to be independent, everything settle myself.. try don't let my parents worry about me.
This is the first time i step out from klang to stay outside..
Everything is so new to me, I have to adapt it.
Btw, this really a very good start of my new life

I learnt to appreciate the loves one in house. Life are just that short and fragile.. We don't know when they will leave us.. Don't wait until they leave us only we know how important are them in our life..
Its will be too late.. hello my ex classmate, i hope u really fine and hope ur mum will recover very soon..
God bless u.

My friends give me a very suprise birthday present this year.. 2 of my old friends, they come to Malacca to visit me tomorrow! so excited and happy~ see u both tomorrow!

I participate karate club for the first time in my life. The training is tough but yet so enjoy! haha..
then i want to join tennis.. badminton and a lot! I become helper for coming mooncake festival too. ^^

More story to update.. everyone take good care!

before going to Uni

2010-07-04T00:14:00.000+08:00

Woohoo.. Malacca I coming to YOU soon!!

I know sure I will miss KLANG!

Take care, my Family n Friends!

I will miss my tortoise.. >.<

Temporally wouldnt bring my laptop cz Orientation Week activities is from morning to 11,12am.. To prevent from lost, my mum will bring for me, with another luggage next next week!

GOD BLESS ME PLEASE..

cameron 9-11 of June

2010-06-26T01:06:00.000+08:00

Venue : Cameron Highland

Date : 9 to 11 of June

Participants : Boon Yee, Esther, Chor Yau, Poh Yong, Kee Voon, Kien Tat, Chung Guan, Wee Kent, Yong Li

This maybe last trip for all of us, but seriously, u guys all really Rocks!

The most important is we gather for our last time, before we depart to our Uni. All of us located from Perlis to Johor.. We are far away.. A friend told me that seems we going to end our friendship. Is it really wlll happen?

I really miss everything in form 6, my teachers, my classmates, my clubs..

Hey, I miss u all!

We joy together, work hard together, stress together..

Now only I know, time flying so fast.. We going to far apart..

When is our next trip? i waiting for that!

Hey guys, work hard for our future okay!

I like this photo very much~ thanks to kee voon!

See! Chung Guan lying at the tea!

Esther & Boon Yee

时光匆匆流逝，离大学的日子也渐渐逼近，我们即将分开了。

月有阴晴圆缺，人有悲欢离合嘛。

怀念大家一起的欢乐时光，好多的不舍得。

有好多的话想告诉你们，

我想念你们！！

～你们是最棒的～

为我们的将来一起奋斗吧！

travel

2010-06-12T16:58:00.000+08:00

Just came back from Cameron Highland trip with form6 classmates. U know how awesome are them? Monday plan, Tuesday booking, Wednesday go! Wow..

Unlike last time, I felt easy tired and sleepy during the trip. U know the purpose of this trip is to gather everyone before we leave to Uni. Just hope can appreciate each moment that we left. Anymore trip? I want climbing Limbing Mountain. Who want??!! can watch sun rise there. I went there when i was form1. I want to go again!

When I get my photo, I will upload here. ^^

MAY

2010-05-28T02:27:00.000+08:00

May day has draw to a close. This means my school days is coming soon. Well, i start to frustrated, thinking how and how if I can't enter local U or i can't get what course I want. I didn't have any backup.
I am going to extract my 3th wisdom tooth, which need a small surgery. Maybe I am just not confident to gov service. But when talks bout fees, I rather save up and use in my study. Private dental clinic is around rm500 while gov just rm50. One 0 lesser, but how about the service? Not dare to think.

Currently learnt a lot from a teacher, that is not in our study but our future. Thanks a lot. I love learning new things. Cashflow, Invest, Amway concept, all looks still far from us, but I hope to learn now. First time ever bought a book about 'Rich Woman' authored by Kimkiyosaki in my life. Ya, I found the way she wrote is so interesting and easy understanding. Will continue to learn and make use it when its time.

Buddy has a lot problem currently but I have no time to reply the long long email. In short, all just about our thought, and the way u face the problem. Cheers! Ur friend, me, will be a best listener!

June I will more and more free time. At the same time income will less and lesser! Wanna plan a trip on coming june but it just too many obstacles, end up with 1 day trip, i should say at least better than none. So 1 is better than none. ^^

无题

2010-05-23T02:03:00.000+08:00

逐渐发现，好像跟其他朋友有好大的距离。
是敏感，还是想多了。
是我忙了？还是大家都忙了。
大家少了共同的话题。
我们仿佛在追求着一些新鲜的东西和生活。
从中获得那无限的快乐，来满足自己。

又回到陌生了。

limit

2010-05-20T00:57:00.000+08:00

Since when teacher need to wait student comes for class. I remember my year is we wait for teacher every class! I means we will come on time. But my this special student, he doesn't do that. He let me wait 1 hour. He ffk me 5 times in months. He always got a lot of reasons.

Today, finally i am in fire.

ME : u know when ur class start?

HIM : yaaaa.. i know.. but my uncle..

ME : u always got a lot of reasons.

HIM : no... is my uncle.. ( start to pattern, swing here n there, no even a 'sorry, i am late')

he can act like without repent let his teacher waiting for 1 hour, take out his yoga competition paper n shout ' i wan to win this!'

ME : do u know how to respect ur teacher? even a standard 1 also knowing that, but you? ur attitude is so bad, thats y ur bahasa is so weak, i can simply find a standard 2 student, their bahasa can even better than u.

HIM : really?

ME: Don't cross over my limit i warn u. Don't because ur dad is rich then u behave like this.

He start to quiet. I not lying, he really have a thousands of reasons. and the most important point is he never come on time. He will late for every class. I get know from him that he was always late to his school. He require the teacher put him on special list that can come late to school. Because he is my only 1 student, I have nothing to do in the centre. blowing to the air con and staring at the wall for 1 hour. Really fucking shit.
I reading a book I bought last week in this 1 hour. Lucky. .

Yes, his bahasa is really weak. Maths too. I teach him chinese too with standard 1 book. I teach him pronunciation. 'yuan' ( round ) he keep pronounce as 'yan' and 'qiu' ( ball ) he keep pronounce as 'qia'. . He took around 15 minutes to learn jz these 2 words.

Finally class ended, go down and waiting his uncle coming. When his uncle's car is coming, he told me 'no this is my car, my uncle bought it frm my dad... My dad is the richest among the siblings.'

I stun, why a standard 4 student will talk about money. . A lot of questions come into my mind. .

现在小孩的思想渐渐年轻化

越来越不成熟

或许随着科技的发达。。

weekend

2010-05-11T00:55:00.000+08:00

This is how my weekend going on..

SATURDAY

i going for work until 10.30am. Then i met up with my friends at kwang hua. Juniors were doing their backwood cooking under sun.. Woo i even forget how to light up the fire! Juniors, jia you!

well done juniors, continue to work hard!

Then, i watch IP MAN2 with wen. Wow really awesome..

Then, we bought a POLO handbag for our mum. =) Hope our mum like it.

Night, eat steamboat with family. =)

SUNDAY,

I went watching Thomas Cup live at Bukit Jalil with my friend.

A good experience to watch it! I wonder i don't have chance to watch it after i enter U. We buy silver seat, which is just behind the court! first time watch at so near distance. Trust me, the feeling is very different with u watching live at TV.

the poster

Indonesia vs Australia

Malaysia team.

Dissapointment for M'sia supporter bcz we miss the chance to watch M'sia team playing. M'sia opponent NIGERIA failed to show up. So, M'sia awarded automatic 5-0 victory.

Other country as expected result, China-Peru 5-0, Indonesia-Australia 5-0, Japan-Germany 4-1

Hope Malaysia can get into final. =)

I prefer to watch semi or final next time. =)

难得的难得

2010-04-24T02:54:00.002+08:00

突然觉得今天太多难得了。
难得今天有人陪去看电影，
难得今天朋友请吃MCD.
难得明天没做工。
难得我打球非常享受。

不是我很忙，只是有时没有天时地利人和。=.=
啊！有时觉得很累，太多课了！
有时太闷了。（对着同一个人！）
有时太无聊了。（拿sudoku动脑筋）
行尸走肉的生活，还要过多久呢？
可是觉得好过在家等发霉。

说回来初恋红豆冰，虽然比不上国际电影，
但我觉得我国能拍得出这样的电影，真的不错了！
值得鼓掌鼓掌。大家要支持啊！
想起好多童年回忆！
想起好多失去联络的玩伴！
想起好多童年游戏！
想起好多回忆！
就是太想念了。。

几时我们的国家才有所谓的种族平等？
非马来人不是二等公民，华人不是外来者，印度人更不是乞丐！
华人贪心，什么都要，让马来人落在后面、
这就是所谓的‘一个马来西亚’ 吗？恐怕只是空喊，还会笑掉牙齿呢。
补选来了，千方百计为了得到选民的支持，不忘了派红包和糖果。
还大方说，‘派钱啊！派红包啊！赢了会有更大红包！’
‘只要有一百票支持我，这五十万就是你们的了啊！何乐而不为呢？’

the most lame post in chinese i post b4.

i just felt too unfair this country especialy some party.

the endless topics ever.

M'sia Boleh

2010-04-19T01:18:00.000+08:00

I am seriously get down by malaysia's politics.
Now I understand, now I realised, thats is nothing is impossible in Malaysia.
That's why we say MALAYSIA BOLEH! Isn't it?
But what we can do? besides bullshiting the politician?
The only one we can do is vote the correct party for the coming GE!
So young sisters and brothers, ur right to choose the future of Malaysia!

suddenly I realise,

I am too innocent to politic b4 that.

New Template

2010-04-15T01:36:00.001+08:00

The blog is still under maintainence.. it had took me more than 2 hours just to choose the template!

Too many choices make me blur, thinking which one is the best.

I think i very satisfy with this template. : )

1.30am now. Another late night again.

Faster Sleeeep sleeeep sleeeep!

cz tommorow has 3 class!

the nite pass so slow.

i feel a lil lonely.

but i have no ppl to chat with.

so sleep better.

看社会

2010-04-13T00:30:00.001+08:00

我任教也有好几个月，被我‘教训’到哭的也有几位。

那时，我暗嘲为何要这么地脆弱，以后长大了不是变懦夫？

原来，我错了。我发现，大人们比小孩更加的失败。

至少，在他们的世界里，是多么的单纯和美丽。

他们不会有大人们的邪念，他们天真无邪，他们对世界还充满期待。

大人们亏灭了他们的期待，制造了现实的社会。
‘钱’的理念，渐渐感染了这个社会。

大人们渐渐地往‘钱’看。

乌黑的政治

假面的‘一个马来西亚’。高喊阻止贪污，背后光明正大交易着。

鲸鱼大屠杀，留着的是鲸鱼鲜血，大人们却享受着那润嫩的鱼肉。

为了钱，大人们什么都肯做。

这些是代价么。。

地震夺走上千上万的人命。

夺走了百千户家园。

是报应吗？

地球生病了，人们也是生病了么？

人的欲望，永远不会停留在满足上。

何时，我们才会了解什么是知足常乐？

尽管如此，

人间温暖还是存在的。

至少，还有那热情的心，感化这社会。

这群人，值得我们大声鼓掌。

#千万别为了钱，出卖自己的灵魂#

2010-04-11T03:01:00.000+08:00

Somethings going wrong with me. I feel like I am annoying, disgusting, disturbing.. as long as something not good. Yet i don't know what the reason. I feel like each word i spoke out is annoying other ppl.. I don't know. I try to be optimistic but I always fail to do it.

I always hope someone can understand me well, but i know i should overcome it myself but not always hoping others understand me. Thats not the correct way i know i know.

戴上不真实的面具，为的是隐瞒自己的憔悴。
我的伪装，欺骗了大家，却欺骗不了自己。
我的心墙，一层又一层地盖上去，为的是保护自己。
老是想找个靠岸，但是永远未抵达而畏缩，因为种种的不信任。
种种的焦虑和不安，让我失去安全感。

#畏缩永远是一种逃避，让你释放暂时的焦虑。
与其选择逃避，不如勇敢面对。#

i broke promise again.

can i wanton for 1 minute?

无耻

2010-04-06T12:07:00.000+08:00

一个人不怎么聪明可以原谅，只要他肯努力。
只有好吃懒做，游手好闲的人，才是最无耻的人。

整天当个废人，浪费青春，不如跳楼死了算了。

#没有上进心的人，无论作任何事情，都不会有什么骄傲的成绩。

thyroid disease

2010-04-05T22:33:00.000+08:00

Early in the morning, 6am wake up, follow mum going to UM hospital again. Reached at 7am. Wait doctor came until 8.30am.. fell slept.. >.< Today my mum going to drink a knid of drink- radioactive iodine. Many of us may dont know about this disease- thyroid disease. For those who is iodine deficiency will have risk to have this disease. As i know, the thyroid will become enlarged. If getting serious, it will become cancer. Lucky my mum is not-so serious type.

I don't know how powerful the radioactive drinks, as doctor said, my mum need to keep distance with us especially to child and pregant woman. Everything have to seperate doing, include food and cloth. My mum jz drink 12 mg but the effect seems so serious. So my mum going to be Queen for one week. LOL

Simple yet happy

2010-04-01T11:56:00.000+08:00

Finally i went to Genting since last year. Genting is no longer cold like last time. By the way i got to catch some fresh cold air. The day pass so fast and we really enjoy it. The 5th time i enter Snow house. Ntg special, everything still same.. Everytime going snow house with different ppl, the feeling a bit defferent too. :p

What important is, we just want to enjoy here! Lets relieve for one day !

I never watch 3D show before, but now i got to watch 4D!

How amazing! I fell I am inside the show, the animation will run to ur front eyes! Hahaha.. Everyone shouted like crazy ppl.. Nice!

the carosel full of childhood memories..

cheers! : )

at outside blow cold wind..

--- The trip is simple yet happy : ) ---

Part 2 -- singapore

2010-03-30T15:13:00.000+08:00

I fever on 3rd day. I felt my body is damn hot and energyless. The 3rd night i stay at my anthoer cousin, Fanny's house. Her house had 4 cute doggies but i can't remember all their names. LOL.

doggies..

---4th day---

We went to SENTOSA. We choose package that include- Image of Singapore, Butterfly Park, Merlion, Tiger Sky Tower which cost aound SGD 30.

Tiger Sky Tower

This is some images view up there.

The hot sun made me more hot and tired. I seriously didnt enjoy and moodless..

Merlion

Afterwards we went to Images of Singapore. Its actually like museum telling the history of S'gapore. All the images are looks so alive. This really an interest place to visit. U will get know a lot of knowledge and their lifestyle at past century. I regret i didnt take much photo here.

Move on to Butterfly park..

At the Butterfly Park, u can feed the birds with SGD 3.00.

The bird standing on my head! LOL

We plan go to Underwater World. But I really energyless d. End up go back home and rest! How dissapointed. At night, my cousin asking me go see doctor. So, we go nearest private hospital because all the clinic had closed on 5pm. It costs me SGD 99 for normal fever! DAMN. which equal to RM239.

Really wtf.. lucky recover quite fast.

---5th day---

Going Dua Payoh, which like pasar pagi. We eat breakfast there and shop to buy cheap shirt. My mum is the one who buy a lot instead of me. Then go back and packing the luggage. Waiting the double decker. The bus is so high class, with plasma tv and toilet inside the bus. From S'pore to Sunway pyramid jz took us 4 hours and 30 minutes. Each ticket SGD 43, provided dinner, hot drinks and mineral water. Thanks a lot to my cousin.

cousin's son with asian cruise behind..

I jz stay there for 5 days but i get know a lot the S'porian lifestyle. I adored with their clean environment, no politics issue, no rasuah, less crime and high tech life. I feel so safe even i outside alone at midnight, unlike here we worry a lot due to deterioration of security. But, guess i will stress studying there. However, i still in M'sia passing the same lifestyle.

--Good bye--

Part 1 -- Singapore

2010-03-27T13:17:00.001+08:00

I had a family trip to Singapore for 5 days 4 nights. Actually the trip is just one day but my mum n me decide to stay longer at my cousin's house. Half of the double decker is my relatives and my mum's friends. We depart from klang at 10pm. I will summarized all shortly. ^^

We arrived there at midnight. So The first destination is the new opened CASINO. I can't enter so i had to walk outside alone. My cousin then take me and my aunt from casino, we take monarail, cab, MRT. Finally we reach Tiong Bahru. We had breakfast there and after that shop around the pasar.

---1st day---

~Universal studio, with my aunt, uncle and cousin~

As they said, Genting Casino is much more bigger than this one.

piece ^^

Afterwards, we go HAW PAR VILLA, a history building. This is quite an interesting place to visit but very dissapointing us because of raining, we all ran into bus. : (

HAW PAR VILLA

Then me n my mum say bye bye to them and my cousin came take us to her house. Her house is kinda big and it is 4 storey house! As my cousin said, now the land costs SGD 4 Millions. =.=! Her house may not big like 4 storey house here, but in S'gapore the land is very limited. So anyone who have this kind house really consider very rich d. Even a condominium, smaller than my house, also costs SGD 600k. Btw, the house is my cousin's husband company support them one.

At night, we go to Newton Food Centre, which is open daily 24 hours. There are more than 50 stalls there for u to choose and the price there are reasonable.

--2nd day--

We go to JURONG BIRD PARK.

We started our walk with PENGUIN EXPEDITION. I finally got to see King Penguins for real! They are damn cute!.

After that we go to World of Darkness. I jz able to capture 2 of them because there actualy camera not allowed.

World of Darkness

left : Snowy Owl Right : Night Herons

Move on to.....

Flamingo Lake

Pelicans

Scarlet Ibises

in the Lory Loft

---3rd day---

Singapore ZOO!

haloooo

can u count how many OTTER inside??

The both white killer tiger that kill a worker last time! Yes, is you both!

Hippo doing fish spa. LOL

Polar bear!!

i thought they help their mum catching kutu but actualy they are combing the mum's hair! haha. the monkey ass is red. LOL

sleeping leopard..

first time saw white colour peacock!

this is my dear GIANT tortoise, which age 80. LOL

dear mum and cousin.

---to be continue---

Inspire

2010-03-18T14:49:00.001+08:00

壮大自己，让人看得起-戴晨志

This is a collection of some inspiring stories.. I got this from my sis as the book is rejected from her company..

I found my life now are so colourless.. I have no dreams or objectives and lost direction!

This book really inspire me a lot.. I start to think what i want in my future.. Before that i used to think without action. This is what we called day dreams! Now i want step forward for my future!

For those who likes me that need motivation.. Strongly introduce this book to you.. Or lend from me!

Sometimes read this type of book not bad too.. ^^ This book really didnt bored me, and it is written in the sense of humour.. The short stories may cheers u up too! ^6^

人生最大的快乐，不在于‘占有什么’，而是在于‘积极，主动追求什么的过程’。

Celebrate Siok Yee & Wee Kent birthday with 6A2 buddies at jusco Aeon, Bukit Tinggi.. HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY! old ady... The cake really nicee. hahahhaa

~Happy birthday to youuuuuu~

WAIT

2010-03-16T21:52:00.000+08:00

I have two waiting days continuously..

my waiting day means get the number and sit down there wait n wait..
monday going UM hospital with mum at 7am.. 1st step, take number, then wait for ur turn..
2nd pay for money and wait for another turn to meet with ur doctor..

After 3 hours waiting.. finally done. Going ground floor take medicine.. take number n wait again..
1 hour waiting n done all that.. After that, taking the letter to another building Nuclear Department to lapor diri.. when done all the procedure, already 12pm.. half day gone.. Kinda tired when waiting for nothing to do.. somemore the handphone no network.. can imagine how boring am i or not..

Tuesday, going to do passport.. 6am+ wake up again.. reach there at 7.15am. queue up and wait the gate open.. repeat the same thing- fill form, take number, wait, pay money, wait, take passport..
all the procedure take me 4 hours.. I wanna fucking the Jabatan Imegresen at port klang. The facilities are fucking palia.. no air con and fan.. and the attitude of stuff there is fucking palia! when going my mum turn, the malay stuff going to toilet, then come out slowly chatting with other stuff and slowly putting the lotion on her hand.. and slowly back to work... pissed off.

so half day gone again... and finally no need WAIT anymore!!

: )

2010-03-10T21:02:00.000+08:00

hot day again..

as usual.. work, sleep, online... bored.
but this kind of life gonna be end soon after few months..
so i want spend more time with my family and friends here..

Trying to find somethings do so that my brain wouldn't rust due to my laziness..
Is i silent my handphone or the handphone silent me.. or should say i 'silent' myself.. swt
This we called 'zhi bi'.

I start to adapted myself with the 'empty' life..
No more emo much like last time.. : )

This blog is bored without photo.. : (

Sometimes simple will be the best.

Summary of February Life..

2010-03-08T21:09:00.000+08:00

Besides chinese new year, my life is like usual in february..

Now i work as part time tutors at two tuition centre. The centre A is totally opposite with centre B.
I means they are different on the way of teaching. I dont know their parents really know how the centre system. Or they just throw their son in the centre then consider done their job. I really dont know wtf centre system. The teaching material is very insufficient. Even a chinese dictionary also dont have and i have to bring myself. The more worse is the centre is too over soft. Or i should say they are scaring their customer run away. The first time last thursday i being so angry in the class. I teach std 1 n std 2 that time. The new student, no text book, no exercise book, no work book. WTH. They are so dont know respect the teacher. They just simply run in the class room like i am trasparent. I shout at them i dont care d. I am on FIRE. Then a girl start crying.. Hey man i want cry also but i have to console her somemore. WTF life is this. I jz take few dollar at this centre i have to pateint much with them..

I not dislike kids.. yea they are cute and innocent. but at least they should respect me as their teacher.. k i know some kids start to run off from this centre.. immediately, i being complained by boss. i being stopped all the afternoon class. I asking, is me too strict to them or i teaching not good? Honestly i already try my best with the insuffiecient material supplied.

Next, thinking day ( 27 of feb ).. glad to meet them - hui sin, mei jee and poh lie. Yea we have fun time at NEWAY. Everyone shout like hell, seems wanna shout out all the unhappiness. Poh lie, ur voice are kinda power and nicee. ^^ However, hope to meet u all again.

The days after taking result.. start to searching any course that i interest and can fit me.. UPM? UKM? UMS? I hope to go to UMS. but guess i will very bu she de all the people and things here.. After searching for so much of course, yet i can't make any decision also. I don't want to regret in the coming 4 years. So i really put effort to find out what i interest with. But sometimes, interest always can't together with future. Are we getting reality in this society? I think most of us will choose money future..

To xxx,
We always hope someone listen to us especially those we love when we are sad. But, sometimes we just can't be so selfish want him/her comfort us. When u feel nobody else u can trust, u still got me, although i not really know ur situation. But i guess it very serious to u. When u feel nobody understand u, u still got ur family. Mayb the case make u and ur family relationship conflict. 'Air dicencang tak akan putus'. Home is still the best. Family is still the best. Try think deeply, maybe u will found that the case is not that serious only. Try dont get influnce by her action. Just mayb u are too stress out with assignment, intership, relationship, family.. all make u burst. Dont worry, u still got ur frens.

--end of story--

happy cny

2010-02-17T16:25:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

firecrackers, fireworks all make the mood to maximum. :) but i didnt play anyone of them.. i just looking the neighbour kids play at the field. The beautiful fireworks light up the silent night. :)

Chinese new year is the time to gather all relative especially those long time no meet. But i guess the generation now they doesnt care so much. They enjoy their facebook in the room rather chit chat with the coming relatives.

Gamble is the normal activity that we all will do every chinese new year. I am lucky in the 2nd day, grabbing all the money from my relatives in just few rounds and becomes the winner in less than one hour time. Wahaha.. some of them are lose up to rm40+.. happy cny, nvm la hahahaha.

Tomorrow going to dong chan si with frens. Yea 2 years didnt go already. Woohooo..

安息吧

2010-01-19T14:14:00.000+08:00

we never know when accident will happen on us.. the moment before accident we happy around..
but never know the DEAD god is going to take us to heaven at the next moment..

the dragon boat accident happened in penang recently.. i really sympathy with the 5 students and teacher..
i havent gone thorugh the feeling of losing the dearest friends and family before.. but i know the feeling and understand losing a friend/ family is a big hurt forever.

i was felicitate that i dont have any accident happened on me the time when i always going camping.. i remember the LANGKAWI WILDERNESS when i was form4. i dont care the parents advice.. the camp is really kinda adventure. i going there for one week. i also remember when we going for kayak in the middle sea the advisor perposely turn the boat to let us fall down into water. As a noob swimmer, i know the feeling when u fall down into sea and u dont even know how to swim at all. This inspire me to learn swimming. Although sometimes a good swimmer cant even save himself in an accident, but at least if we know swim we still got the chance to save ourself rather than a noob swimmer like me keep struggle on the water. i not really like swimming actualy.

i cant imagine that how if one day i lost my best friend or family or my friend or family lost me. recently too many disaster remind me that i need to appreciate everything everyone around me. and the most important is SAVE WORLD.

年轻人，安息吧！

random post

2009-12-26T13:19:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i dreams about my tortoise.. so weird >.< i dream i feed another same species but down syndrome. what kinda dreams is this. -.-!! i seems never post anything about my tortoise.

hii~ i already 12 years old..

side view...

front view..

'dont distrubing me sleeping!'

damn cute sleeping style~

camera-shy tortoise wth. -.-!!

this is super weird post. -.-!! lolz...

there is more photo but in my handphone. sometimes it really make me laugh due to its damn stupid action. haha..

it will accompany me forever n forever. i dont wanna lost u now!!

Happy X'mas

2009-12-25T12:54:00.000+08:00

honestly my first time in my life celebrate Merry X'mas at sunway with my 6a2 classmates- tan kee voon, tan sian hui, ng chor yau, lee poh yong, ha wee kent, shangaran, tan loo siang and another gang.

we have our dinner at BOSTON. the lala is pretty tasty and the prawn too. Most of us sweat non stop due to the chilli and hot.. =.=
We start our journey to sunway, traffic jam around and finally reach. Guess what, i meet a long time no meet friend- Jacinda Khoo! ya she becomes much pretty and still that tall girl. ^.^ After some walk and shopping, we start to take the sprayer from car. Our nice buddy- chor yau, he gets the spray from his uncle which 6 spray jz cost for rm10 while there they sold 3 for rm10. =.= special thanks to mr ng chor yau which light up this special X'mas!

Jacinda join us after this and the spray war is start. We find victim and spray until they becomes a snowman / snowgirl. lolz syok man! imagine each ppl with 2 sprayer in each hand respectively sparying on u. -.-!! After the war, we sent Jacinda back to hotel and we have some washing there to clean up our soapy body.
With the sweat sour body and messy hair, we go to mamak to have some drinks. Again we yum seeeeng! No whisky but with teh tarik and limau ais.. haha. the neighbour table follow yum seeeng with us too. >.< the mamak suddenly becomes so lively.

after this, we went back smoothly without traffic jam to our sweet sweet home around 2.45am. i think many of us first time in their life back on so lately night and i am one of them. -.-!! However i really enjoy this special X'mas and i think others too have the same feeling with me. ^.^

lastly, MERRY X'MAS and HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone!!

往事只能回味

2009-12-18T22:50:00.000+08:00

是命中注定吧，注定不是属于我们的感情。

看到过去一切，让我回忆一切的一切。

如今往事就只能回味。

心里充满遗憾和后悔。

我背着伤感离开不属于我们的世界。

不得不放手，不得不让你离开。

属于我们点点滴滴的伤心，我们要各自忘记。

随它飘吧，只想你我留在各自的脑海是美丽的。

再多的不舍得，也得说再见了。

new life

2009-12-13T21:01:00.000+08:00

i cant be like this anymore..
i know.. i should stop all these..
finally i had a conclusion..
the story is ending d..
everything is over.. it is really pain..
i will learn to control my emo..
i am a pessimistic person i know..
whatever over is over d..
i will try to dont think much again.
i want to start a new brand life..

for the YOUTH today.

2009-11-30T20:02:00.000+08:00

ppl are always complained in their life.. ppl are always complained this world are unfair..
ppl always think- why they so rich, but me work until like SHIT to earn money?
ppl always grumble why their parents treat them unfairly.
ppl always hope one day they can becomes rich by throwing their money buy 4D.

they may dont know, and may not realised, why parents are so unfair.
SHE got big car than me, but I am just that small car.
SHE got her parents provide her money but I just work like SHIT to get what I want.

u say this FAMILY is unfair. then how only is FAIR for you?
want the OLD one buy car for YOU?? only this is what u called 'FAIR'??
u may becomes parents to ur kids ONE DAY. the same thing when ur kids growing the age like YOU.
and they complain to you saying u treaten them unfairful. how you think??

NO ONE is poor. all depends on how u going to spend the MONEY u earned.
i know i am too YOUNG to say that.
why ppl always NO MONEY?? mostly is because they use their money in unnessecary things.
they throwing their money to buy 4D. why not we just SAVE the money??
i no understand why they no money still can buy all those useless things.

u complaining u already work that hard still want me how??
one thing i want to ask u, ARE YOU SURE U ALREADY WORK HARD??
and this is the outcome from ur hard work??

ppl always said how u trreat the OLD todays, u will get the same treat ONE DAY.
ppl always said how ur attitude to ur family todays, u will do the same things to ur own family ONE DAY.

u can choose anything in this world, but one things u cant choose, that is your FAMILY.

GUYS, plz dont treat the LADIES in ur house as ur maid.
LADIES, no one is ugly in this world, only those who are LAZY are the most ugly.

ppl, plz think.

胡思乱想

2009-10-03T21:40:00.000+08:00

上天给我一个很会思考的脑袋，可惜不是用在学业上
而是用在胡思乱想！情绪时常几乎控制我整人。
总是作了一却才来后悔当初所作的一却！实在太不理智了。
或许是老天爷要给我的考验，要我克服它！
我要证明，我能改掉它！不再胡思乱想。。
相信你,就不应该再制造烦恼给你..
希望我这次真的能做到。。朋友们，我会让我的手机休息两个月！
就是说会和你们失去短暂联络。我要证明我没了手机也能活！
考试只剩六个星期，我会努力的。。
虽然这次的考试奇迹的有稍微进步。。但还是不是很理想。。
大家加油吧。。做最后的奋斗！

我想只有我才能明白这个post的真正内容..
~中秋节快乐~

this is so true

2009-09-28T18:50:00.000+08:00

巨蟹座男性
巨蟹座的男性必定有颗温柔而敏感的心。
他的情绪太容易受到外界的影响，
想完全了解他并不是件容易的事。
保护自己，是巨蟹座的本能。
他很少会让你一下了解他太多，
他本能的保护自己脆弱敏感的心，你要给他很多的安全感。
大多数的巨蟹座男性都很害羞，
他们很害怕自己被拒绝。
如果你真的喜欢他，不妨给他一点明显的暗示
当你们的感情进展到一个阶段，他会更加不安，
他会一再的试探你到底还爱不爱他，他希望你不断的证明。
当你们闹别扭时，哭或撒娇是比较好的方式，你们马上就可以和解！
而且往往是不战而胜！千万不要凶着一张脸对他大吼大叫，
这样一来伤害往往比原先更严重，他会觉得你不尊重他，不爱他了！
最重要的事！千万别随便丢他的旧东西，
对怀旧的蟹子来说，一本破书或是一只旧手表，
都是他的无价之宝！
缅怀过去的一切对他是享受也是改不掉的习惯，
对于这点你该高兴，因为对怀旧的他来说，你也是越老越值钱！
永远记得“温柔”就是你最有力的武器！！

巨蟹座女性
有时觉得她善解人意的可爱，
有时又气她们敏感、情绪化的莫名其妙。
如果你只是个把爱情当游戏的人，请千万不要去招惹她，
这对一个真情真意的巨蟹座女性来说真的是太残忍了，
巨蟹座的女人是玩真的，感情绝不是她们轻易亵渎的东西。
很少会有女人会让你觉得自己是那么重要，
她非常没有安全感，敏感而且容易受伤！
但是她的情绪化也很可能弄得你几乎疯掉。
常常你的一句无心之言，就会弄得她泪流满面。
最好不要随便批评，或是揶揄你那蟹座的小女人，
她几乎脆弱的经不起一丝丝爱人对她的挑剔。
她始终在担心，担心自己是不是不够好，担心你是不是不再爱她了，
她需要你经常的证实。
巨蟹座女性有个奇怪的特性，如果你不告诉她“够了”，
她就会不断地尝试，看你能够容忍她到什么程度。
她似乎很难明白什么叫”适可而止”。
有些蟹座女性的婚姻就是这样出问题的，最后她当然后悔自己太任性，
但凭良心说，那个宠坏她的丈夫，多少也该负些责任。
怎能在宠坏她之后，再到外面去寻求温柔的慰藉？
她需要你宠她，她也相对的宠你。
对她们来说，宠坏一个男人似乎是占有他的最好方法。
即使你离开她，等你想清楚了，还是会回到她身边的，
因为没有人会像她那样爱你了!
通常她只会在心情沮丧（觉得你不爱她）的时候才会乱花钱来平抚内心不安的情绪，
为了你的荷包着想，常常给她“爱的感觉”才是明智之举。

真相大白

2009-09-26T23:07:00.000+08:00

有时宁愿被隐瞒，都不想知道真相大白。
当你知道了一点点，你就会想要知道更多。
你会一直尝试找答案。。
所以，宁愿什么都不知道，不是更好吗？
又或者扮失忆，扮傻，扮笨蛋。
醒醒啦，你只不过逃避问题。
既然你都道歉了，我不会再想了。。
就让它随时间溜走。
或许我也有错。不想了，不想把它复杂化。

有时，思想越简单越好。

crayon shin-chan

2009-09-21T21:07:00.000+08:00

the author of crayon sinchan- USUI YOSHITO had passed away!

He was missing on 12 sept when going to climb mountain. today he was found dead from falling down from the mountain..

my favourite comic when i was small..

opps i really miss it!

no more pure crayon sinchan..

its so cute n funny!!

kong hoe fun fair

2009-09-20T21:00:00.000+08:00

today is my primary school 义卖会

i think many of us doesnt know this avtivity..

i just know last friday only..

its so so nice n modern!

the hall of kong hoe.. 100 times nicer than dewan putra..

inside the hall.. so so different compared my year that time!!

next..

i didnt take any photo of the food sold..

my bro get rm100 voucher from his boss.. woo is rm100!

eat a lot and play a lot..

here are one of the game i play most times..

rm3 for 2 fishnet make by tisu paper..

catch fish!!

here the outcomes...

i caught 16 fishes..

opps my tortoise like it! keep stare on them.. waiting to eat them??

today meal's is ang sio yu (红烧鱼）hahaha..

next i go 1st floor and saw this..

my standard 1 class!!

1B classroom...

by the way.. i didnt saw any my primary school classmates..

maybe they dont know about this activity..

but i do meet a lot of friends.. and teachers!!

they cant recognize me but i can recognize them!

well done kong hoe..

MUV + SING

2009-09-18T20:16:00.000+08:00

today is kinda happy..

morning go NEWAY with my classmates.
we around 11 people in one room..
its very worth!! we sing 3 hours+..
frm 11.15am to 3pm.
it just cost me rm6. ( provided food and drink )
not really enjoy in singing.. but its kinda fun hang out with them..

i reach house around 3.40pm. then wash face then go out again..
i go watch WHERE GOT GHOST with my fren at jusco bukit raja..
the show start 4.30pm. imagine how rush am i..
the show cost me rm7 ( student price ) and popcorn around rm4+..
and parking fees rm1.
total i spend less than rm20 today.. its really worth!!

then finally i reach house at 7+pm. :p

有什么办法可以让一个人忘掉过去所有不开心的回忆？
不去想是逃避吗？还是不想再制造问题？

人，有时候就是这么的矛盾。
一下想这样，可是过后又后悔，又想那样。

请原谅我的矛盾。。

here where the friendship exists...

2009-08-28T11:03:00.000+08:00

thanks mei jee..
thanks for everythings....
especially yesterday.. i miss u!!

here where the friendship going on...

the friendship although is just 7 years.. but it will hold on and on until forever and forever..

i do miss every moment we get together..

we stay far away.. but our heart are closed..

i found the true friendship..

most of the time we together for every activities..

here the another pure friendship..

nothing is better than the friendship..

our photo is less, but the fire in the heart never end..
hey friends.. appreciate friends around u..
no matter old friends or new friends..
keep in touch and mind always..

心情

2009-08-26T13:31:00.000+08:00

与其自己闷闷不乐，不如选择开心面对问题。
放宽了心情，把什么都会变美了。

退一步,海阔天空.

2009-08-22T11:59:00.000+08:00

最近，生活过的不是很好。
读书压力，生活压力。压得快喘不过气来。
老师拼命地加科，我们拼命地上课。
假期等于没假期。
这样的生活要维持到什么时候？

在我们的生活里，大家都有着“怕输“的概念。
谁都不肯让出第一步,因为这将被认为输了.
这里想要分享一个小故事。。

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去年过年前一个星期，我在市场上买了一块桌巾，先生直夸我眼光好，两人意回家就兴冲冲地铺上。坐在餐桌前，好不得意，心想能围着这美美的桌布吃年夜饭，应该别有一番滋味吧！

这时，大姑从房间走出来，看见了新桌布，劈头便说：“怎么不等过年在铺”？ “过年不也是在过日子，现在铺跟过年铺还不都一样？”我跟先生异口同声地回答。

当时，只见她脸一垮，转身回房间，没多久拿了包包边出门了。晚上回到家，我们请她出来吃饭，她仍摆个脸色，对我们理都不理；就这样，她不理我们，我们也不理她。

直到过年前三天，先生眼看年节一天天逼近，家里仍笼罩在冷气团中，于是拜托我主动跟大姑说好话，好化解那些天以来的冰冻气氛。事隔半年后，有天我捷运上吴宝美师妹抱怨着，口气仍透着浓浓的不满。

“那你后来有先跟大姑说好话吗？”宝美轻轻地问.

"当然有啊!不然怎么办,都快过年了,只好跟她说话咯!"我无奈地回答.

宝美高兴地拍着我说:"你真的很棒,先低头跟她说话,很不容易哦!输赢,输赢;先输才会赢.无论他人如何对待,能够心平气和地面对,心不随境转,这才是真正的赢;如果被外境所转,那就是输了."

当下我不以为然:"输了就输了,哪来先输才会赢得道理,根本就在安慰人嘛!"

然而回到家,她的话却一直在握心里低回不己.我回想着过年时,一家人吃年夜饭的温馨气氛;年初二,其他姑姑们回娘家的欢乐,任谁也嗅不出三天前,家里有如冷气团般冰凉,这难道不是我先认输所换来的双赢局面吗?" 杀那间,我对"输赢"有了另一番的定义.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

------- 退一步,海阔天空. --------

感想

2009-07-24T16:51:00.000+08:00

Today is AGM!
the nite before today, i wrote down a lot things that i want to pass to my new president.
i feel a bit tension, i keep imagine the situation tomorrow. i wonder my decision is wrong. BUT after agm, i satisfy with the changed list. I got my reason and I believe myself decision..
thanks to my SU, a kinda independent, responsible and good helper in doing works..
although sometimes her temper easy get 'heat'. haha.
thanks ya u really help me a lot.
i think u means the junior's activity rite.
frankly speaking really telling wrong way ady.
but other than this i think still acceptable lah. haha.

Oh yeah.. finally the burden is release.
I hope all new ajks will cooperate and work hard!!
Thanks ajk's of 2008/2009!!
I noe i still not the best.
cz a lot planning doesnt going on.
one thing i proud of myself is the trip to Melaka.
i satisfy with it. :P

Talk about new president.. sporting, but sometimes quiet.
She is very experience in leading.. i telling this because i am oso a 过来者. I can see the difference whose are experience and without experience. Their leading way will be different. i believe she can do better than me.
Her assistant is a shy but responsible guy. I still not very noe about his personality. But i am sure he will gain a lot experience IF he is active in the club.

Now i wan start to gain back my study mood!
Step forward STPM!

club's activity

2009-07-11T17:34:00.000+08:00

i am back to blogging..
talk about yesterday activity..
it is consider ok. at least they got try their best.
but bon odori group realli make me fire.
one week ady tell me she found 2 ppl register.
i cant c she trying to promote, instead she is busy doing other clubs things.
c how are u going to handle all this.

being a ketua is easy, BUT being a good ketua is not easy,
i say meeting, they say got tuition, got this that meeting.
so i handle all this alone.
avytime i nid follow their time. mayb i am too free? jz thurs tuition others days is free..
next week, a lot seniors are busy. telematch, badminton match, bowling...bla bla

hope everythings going smooth..

peace

2009-06-27T20:20:00.000+08:00

jz now my hz happen quarrel.
although it is very common happen in my hz.
but i want to say
plz la control ur c2p emotion.

u noe wat is respect?
i noe sometimes when we are in trouble
we may very 'mang zhang'
but y dont u jz keep ur mouth shut
y want start the war.
c2p. brainless.

plz learn to control ur emotion.
i learn to be oso last time.

and for all gals..
if ur bf is kinda rude to his family,
one day if he already build up his own family,
he will do the samethings to his family oso.
unless he can listen to his wife.

spend smart, work hard, complain less
success will be in ur front.

control emotion, control attitude
family will be peaceful.

ntg is fair in this world. even in own family
jz accept the truth and work hard
the success come with ur own hand will be more value

holiday coming end

2009-06-12T21:35:00.000+08:00

突然间觉得有太多还未完成的事情，
变得很彷徨。。时间去了哪里？还是我把时间丢去那里？
心飘了哪里？快回来啊！
不行啊。。不想再这样下去了。醒来吧！

have to start planning ady..
holiday is coming to end silently..
dunno the direction, dunno where to start..
i feel the fear of my result ady..
GOD BLESS ME.

~turtle pose~

2009-06-11T20:19:00.000+08:00

exam week

2009-05-24T22:10:00.000+08:00

this week is the second week of exam week,
but compare to last week,
i am now more relax..

last week....
tension..
excited..
tired cz burn midnite oil avyday..
1st time have all this complicated feeling..
jz because i didnt prepare well due to insufficient time..
cant concentrate due to the damn hot weather avyday ( wtf reason..)
then always run to old town to have air con n drinks while study..
i am in tension..

lol i hate exam.. i think no one will like it..

all the best my frens who are taking exam tooo..

PERAK CRISIS

2009-05-09T21:05:00.000+08:00

評論：迦瑪魯汀‧許月鳳驅逐西華古瑪
2009-05-08 19:18
5月7日是馬來西亞人不能忘記的日子，這一天在霹靂州發生了令人難以置信的事情。尊貴的女副州議長下令驅逐州議長，而議長在眾目睽睽下被連人帶椅架出了議會廳。一場民主鬧劇如此轟轟烈烈地荒唐上演，留下了無盡憤怒、失望、憂心和迷茫。

數月前，正當大馬各族人民沉浸在華人新年的歡快氣氛中，不料平地一聲雷，國陣突然在距霹靂幾百里外的布城召開新聞發佈會，宣佈3位民聯州議員跳槽，以獨立人士身份宣稱支持國陣。於是國陣單方面聲明奪權成功，副首相納吉覲見霹靂蘇丹，國陣新大臣贊比里走馬上任。

國陣奪權並沒通過州議會提呈不信任動議的程序，而是在州議會外自導自演。這之後，國陣又利用手中掌握的國家機器，將霹靂民聯官員全體逐出州政府。然而奪權過程中卻偏偏遺漏和忽略了議長西華古瑪，結果讓西華仗著議長權力，宣佈對大臣、6名行政議員及3名無黨派議員實施禁足令。

國陣奪權，大臣還未緩過神來，民聯議長即宣佈3月3日召開州議會。國陣再次動用國家機器，在這一天派出軍警封鎖霹靂州議會大廈。議長西華古瑪不得不改在距離州政府大廈附近停車場的一棵大樹下舉行緊急州議會，而國陣聲明這次會議並不合法。

接著，國陣入稟法庭，要求判議長西華古瑪的禁足令無效，而且法院很快就作出了判決。不僅如此，反貪污局還調查、騷擾議長西華古瑪，目的只有一個，就是奪權沒商量。

霹靂州議會若在6個月內不開會就得自動解散，為了讓奪取的政權能夠生存延續，國陣就須奪回州議長權力。不過這一回，國陣沒有選擇在百里之外的布城舉行新聞發佈會，讓尊貴的許月鳳副議長宣佈開會，並由國陣州議員通過決議，撤換西華，換上甘尼申。

國陣選擇在霹靂州議會大廈會議廳內上演這出民主鬧劇。西華古瑪，你嚷嚷你的；尼查、倪可漢、倪可敏，你們所有民聯議員們想說甚麼都無所謂，要的只是你們在場的那個效果。這就代表州議會成功召開了，合法與否，反正誰說了都不算，最終誰叫得動警察誰說了算。

國陣要的就是這結果：國陣民聯雙方議員到齊，尊貴的許月鳳副議長主持州議會，撤換西華古瑪議長，由國陣的甘尼申取代。甘尼申隨即穿上備好的議長制服，給西華兩次自我安靜的機會。西華不接受警告，最後不得已，由許月鳳驅逐西華古瑪。

民聯議員還摸不清方向，王儲納茲林已經入場要致御詞。陛下言畢，霹靂州議會正式易手。

星洲日報／言路‧作者：迦瑪魯汀‧時事評論人‧2009.05.08

AS A MALAYSIAN, I FEEL SHAME WITH OUR COUNTRY.
THEY DO ANYTHINGS TO GET STATUS AND WEALTH

HERE ARE THE REAL VIDEO HAPPEN IN PERAK.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hnaqFIzvCCw&feature=related

short post

2009-04-10T23:47:00.000+08:00

19 years old...
do u think u alrealdy not in ur parents control?
do u think u already can do anythings u like without ur parents permissions?
u can have a gf/bf cz u d consider 'big' enuf to start a realationship?
u can hang out with frens until midnite they oso not care?

what i want to express is..
i not want to protest to get more freedom..
i noe u all care me but this is not the only way.
i got my privacy and i dont like ppl seek my things without permissions.
i believe anyone of u dont like oso.
i didnt blame u all oso cz i noe u all are for my own good.
but i want to say again this is not the way u care me.
i never do anythings hide from u all.
i never go back home late than 12am.
i never mixed with unhealthy frens.
i lazy to explain cz the more i explain the more complicated.

i am not complaining or disatisfied but jz to express my small small idea.
can u all listen to me jz once??

oh~~ get my new spec

2009-04-01T19:22:00.000+08:00

temporary half blind for two days..
cz i break my spec..
n i get my new spec d today..
i wouldnt on9 so often d as my eye test result is as below:
jing shi 近视～250 and 200
shan guang 散光～300 and 350 (wtf...)

i dont noe why it will increse that much but i will decrese my online time to protect my eyes..

and dear all my frens..

i am ok d. all that had over d.. dont worry about me.

思念是一种病

2009-03-29T15:13:00.000+08:00

张震岳～思念是一种病

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
一辈子有多少的来不及
发现已经失去最重要的东西
恍然大悟早已远去
为何总是在犯错之后
才肯相信错的是自己
他们说这就是人生试着体会
试着忍住眼泪还是躲不开应该有的情绪
我不会奢求世界停止转动
我知道逃避一点都没有用
只是这段时间里尤其在夜里
还是会想起难忘的事情
我想我的思念是一种病
久久不能痊愈
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
汲汲营营忘记身边的人需要爱和关心
借口总是拉远了距离不知不觉无声无息
我们总是在抱怨事与愿违
却不愿意回头看看自己
想想自己到底做了甚么蠢事情
也许是上帝给我一个试炼
只是这伤口需要花点时间
只是会想念过去的一切
那些人事物会离我远去
而我们终究也会远离变成回忆
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
oh 思念是一种病
oh 思念是一种病
一种病
多久没有说我爱你
多久没有拥抱你所爱的人
当这个世界不在那么美好
只有爱可以让他更好
我相信一切都来得及
别管那些纷纷扰扰
别让不开心的事停下了脚步
就怕你不说就怕你不做
别让遗憾继续一切都来得及
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
oh 思念是一种病
oh 思念是一种病
一种病

情绪化

2009-03-25T21:28:00.000+08:00

当情绪控制一个人的时候，

没了理智

没了方向

没了头脑

当我清醒来时，

才发现，自己已经过火了。

文怡，怎么了。

emo

2009-03-25T21:16:00.001+08:00

sorry all..

i noe i over d..

because i cant control my emo that time..

very sorry.

this is LIFE

2009-03-19T17:16:00.000+08:00

my emotion within this month is just like the wave-high n down

happy~ i get a medal in Hari Sukan for 4 x 100 m which is out my expected.

laugh~ i enjoy the time i spent with my friends n family.

angry~ some ppl which doesnt hv the responsibility in what they suppose to do.
~ a friend that fool me that really makes me very angry.

cry ~ i release the tension that keeps in my heart for so long, i found the solution and i becomes more tough.

pek chek~ many things doesnt go well and i feel helpless when the problems come to me

This is what we called~ LIFE. Only few of my frens realise my all these emotions. For u all mayb i am always happy jz because of my smiling, but actualy i am NOT, mayb u all not fully understand me. Just i dont want put my emotion on my face, except i really care for somethings.

I learn a lot within this month and thanks to my fren accompany me when i am not happy. i really appreciate all these.

分担vs分享

2009-03-16T08:54:00.000+08:00

我尝试地把我内心深处想说的话表达出来，
我发现，我真的看开了。
虽然没有百分百的打开自己的心窗，
但是我得到了启示，懂得该如何向前进。

可以分享烦恼的朋友可以很多，
但试问，可以真正和你分担烦恼的人又有几位？

分担，不只是只和‘帮忙’化上等号。
能给你忠告，带你走出烦恼，告诉你应该怎样面对问题，
也是一种分担。

分享了，得到的只是一时的安慰，
但是问题依然存在着，接下来你依然一个人要面对。

分担和分享的差异在于，分担能帮你解决问题，不管是心灵上还是行动上，
当然还是要靠自己才能完全把问题解决。

要找一个能真真和你分享，同时和你分担的人，真的不容易。

我用了一个小时，把我长久以来藏在心里的那块大石头释放出来，
这小时，我已经忘了四周围陌生人的双眼。
你所说的每一句话我都听进心里，到现在我依然记得。

当你把心打开，思想看开，你会发现原来问题其实没有你想象的那样严重，
因为如果你连自己都放不开，你又如何能解决心里问题？
看开点，烦恼自然会减少。。

fire burning

2009-03-13T16:09:00.000+08:00

i have a very bad day..
if i say i no angry, i totally cheat u.
i VERY VERY angry.
i noe i got fault oso, but y dont u jz say the truth when i ask u,
and keep teeling fool.
arghhhhhhh!!!

我回来了

2009-03-11T23:54:00.000+08:00

另一个我回来了。。谢谢你

林峰-爱不疚

2009-03-09T08:29:00.000+08:00

收藏在眼眸常徘徊左右爱猜到没有
愉快玩笑後能全然退後你开心就够
这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够
假使讲了你听到後或会走
这种恋爱太罕有不需真正拥有
成全衷心祝福然後就放手
放手放开所有彼此更自由
放手其实我绝非爱得不够
放手豁出所有还有这个好友
已经已经足够

遥远是宇宙静静在背後去看守就够
这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够
即使一刹有过冲动挽你手
这种恋爱太罕有不需真正拥有
成全多舍不得仍然是放手
放手放开所有彼此更自由
放手其实我绝非爱得不够
放手豁出所有还有这个好友
已经已经足够
放手我的牵挂找不到尽头
放手期望你幸福甚麽都有
也许爱很深厚然而我早看得透
放手至可拥有

可不可以放手，我真的觉得好累，我已经没力气在躲避你。
死缠的感情不会得到幸福，更不会得到她的感动和关怀，只会让她更加地疏远你！
那缘分不是你的始终就不是你的。就算你在怎样努力它都不会属于你的！
喜欢和适不适合是两回事！
每个人都喜欢名牌，可是不是每个人适合戴名牌！
就算你有钱把它买下，然而戴在你身上一点都不出色，因为它就是不适合你！
爱情即是如此！你喜欢她，不代表她就是你你想要找的另一半！
人情事物一直都在转变着，我们要学会接受事实和放手。
不要继续固执，放手吧。。时间不会证明你的真心诚意，只会证明我们的友谊已经快要出现裂痕。

无奈

2009-02-20T15:56:00.000+08:00

很多时候，我们不能满足所有人，
我们不能都让所有人都能接受我们的看法。
我们所说的每一句活，每一个举动，都可以让人误解。
当你尝试地去解释，哪知越描越黑。
所以有时沉默是最好的方法。但我绝不是懦夫。
只是不想伤害任何人。我也不是一味只想当好人。

有时你的忠言逆耳，别人未必能接受。
但至少我做了朋友之间该做的任务。
接下来，接受与否就看个人怎样想了。
有时候，不是靠一句真心，人家就会感激你的。
你的用心良苦，不是每个人都体会得到。
但至少你付出过，虽然得不到回报，可是却觉得有股前所未有的满足感。

TALK TO ME

2009-02-13T20:24:00.000+08:00

you talk to me
you speak with me
don't sink before you rise baby
don't fade away
you hesitate
you seem to wait
for all the time we had
feels like a world away
who's to say
we'll be ok
we're gonna make it through the night
don't wanna wake up in this state
i just want us both to smile
cause we're the same
and i know that we'll never change
look i bought your favourite ice cream
i dont wanna see it melt away
if you walk out now
i don't know if we're gonna be the same
baby just talk with me
cause i want you to stay here with me

2009-02-07T00:12:00.000+08:00

What a bad day..
reccess take photo, meet nasir tat big fish, spend me whole reccess n i doesnt eat for whole morning except d bread i eat at early morning.
how come i divide all d work d i thought i can have some time to rest but in d end me oso nid to work oso..
3 days no school, i must spend wisely this 3 days as my hw d accumulate like mountain n my study is d neglect for a week.
i blur blur when teacher teaching n i feel sleepy all the time.
my temper is hot today.. cz of hungry mayb? n yet so many things to do..
until finish school d still got meeting..
and i hav my 1st meal which i da pao frm school n eat inside car at 2.30pm for today.
then go take my i.c.. i wait for long time but the door yet dont wan open. hey its d 2.40pm n sembahyang time is until 2.30pm only ma. then the place becum more crowded n crowded. in the end i dont hav d patient to wait d door open d n i go back home.
finally i reach home n i can hav a rest d..

tortoise in oven

2009-02-05T21:27:00.000+08:00

wanna eat it?

怎么了

2009-02-04T21:13:00.000+08:00

人言可畏，还有谁我可以相信？我快支掌不住了。
一传二，二传三，三传四。
最后，又是伤害。
心里一块大石头，压得我快喘不过气来。
怎么我越想放，它越把我压到深处。
以为表达出来可以舒服，哪知又是另一个噩梦的开始。
我挣扎，我害怕，我快崩溃了。
几时的我变得那样脆弱，怎么我一直打不开我的心窗。
文怡，你怎么了

tuesday

2009-02-04T01:12:00.000+08:00

ya i m stress.. stress of wat?
u indirectly gv me transparent stress.
the things u know i dont know, u didnt tell me n i think u think i noe it.
although its not a important things..
when i reach the assembly..
1st,i ask u sth n ur expression n words answer me like this: huh u wat also dont know ah?
i speechless......... i really dont know cz cf not tell me.
make me feel i m useless in the run we do.
2nd time, u talk talk n talk i dunno wat u talk cz its cant go in my mind but its sth like this. u cant call the babi cz u say i late gv u the number. i just noe i did ntg wrong cz after c.k tell me i d straight sms to u.
2nd time, i quiet during whole assembly.......
that time sy n gl didnt cum. its just like a wall between us.
u report to me everythings, like u d tell who who who about the money.
its sound like u did a lot but for me actuali not. its jz a small small things.
jz like last time when the money prob.. i rcv sms frm zz n wm they say sorry to me cz didnt at there to help solve the prob. (jz me n cf there) but u didnt do tat. u keep asking where the money go until my face tell u-stop asking, and u stop it.
this is for the 1st time i so hard to cooperate with someone in doing activity.
this is the 1st time n last time.
ya u got help me n i say thank you to you..
dont know y doing a run is much more harder than doing a trip.
i hope u didnt read my blog..
if it is wordpress then i can hide it but blogspot cant.
mayb i m kinda sensitive to words.. i m sorry.
i so hope this run faster come faster go. i really hate this run!!!!!!

signing off
1.40am

be tough girl

2009-02-03T21:49:00.000+08:00

i chat with christina jz now at msn..
although is a while but i really miss her a lot..
i share with her my life.
i tell her i m in stress n in tired..
i tell her i feel wanna cry with this kind of life..
i tell her i got infinity of homework to do..
everyone is busy..
she say she enjoy in her busy life.
but me pula suffer in my busy life.
this is what she tell me
BE TOUGH GIRL
i hope so..

happy chinese new year

2009-01-30T23:55:00.001+08:00

here are how i spend this cny..
1st n 2nd day of course spend with my family..
3rd n 4th day i go around 10 frens hz.. they are- siok yee, bee young, tsu xin, yee wei, chi kuan, poh ching, chin min, chor yau, sian hui n xiao wen hz..
5th day rest at home. have family gathering at nite..
6th day? havent planning yet.. haha

～你不是真正的快乐～

2009-01-27T23:10:00.000+08:00

～你不是真正的快乐～

人群中哭著你只想變成透明的顏色
你再也不會夢或痛或心動了
你已經決定了你已經決定了
你靜靜忍著緊緊把昨天在拳心握著
而回憶越是甜就是越傷人了
越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深淺淺的刀割
你不是真正的快樂你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼
這世界笑了於是妳合群的一起笑了
當生存是規則不是你的選擇
於是妳含著眼淚飄飄盪盪跌跌撞撞的走著
你不是真正的快樂你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼
你不是真正的快樂你的傷從不肯完全的癒合
我站在你左側卻像隔著銀河
難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了然後才後悔著
你值得真正的快樂你應該脫下你穿的保護色
為什麼失去了還要被懲罰呢
能不能就讓悲傷全部結束在此刻
重新開始活著

今年的愿望：天天开心
如果连微笑都有虚假的，那么怎样的微笑才是真的？
怎么脸上带着笑容，心里却是哭泣的？
原来我不是真正的快乐。

desperate

2009-01-22T18:18:00.001+08:00

today i really bad mood after school.
meeting again..
the run things is so so messy n i dont know how to settle it.
somemore i need to go k.l to submit the form after merentas desa tomolo..
i didnt blame anyone cz its realli rush.
i am tired..
my room havent clean yet still need go school on saturday for koperasi telematch?
somemore at the early morning 7am?
i am tired..
with the run things. lower form xiao kia collect money frm them besok n besok.
some members do a lot but some ppl do ntg.
when i m in fire some even put more oil on me.
ur non stop talk make me so so burning.
and i am so impatient n so unwilling to answer u!
can u talk less n work more? i really dont like ppl comment on my works since they know nothing.
plz gv some cooperation on this run.

actually, why u all want gv the task and divide us into few groups leh.
it is more good if we all ajk work together.

frm, my small opinion.
i am sorry.

whats going on??

2009-01-19T18:41:00.000+08:00

whats going on today!
download wrong 2007 form n today only realise when sh tell me. wtf.
when reccess faster call to the office n ask clearly the pig in charge.
thanks to sh. luckily u realise it!
n only 5 participants frm lower form. =(
luckily the run still can continue..

the notice board we plan to do today but suddenly we informed by teacher that we need to change class??
wasting my long times thinking n doing. wtf
n our school time will start as usual until 3.30pm? apa ni.. u think we are robot student meh..
what happen to me?
head pain sumtimes pening cz of lack blood. getting worse..
i d take enuf sleep dah. (blame the hot day) realli need rest d.

～新年快乐～

2008-12-30T01:34:00.000+08:00

悄悄的又过了一年，看着日历一天比一天的变薄。
明天就是2008年的最后一天了！
顿时间，觉得时间过得好快好快。。
中六生涯已经过了半年。

～新年快乐～

Merry christmas

2008-12-29T00:06:00.000+08:00

me n yee wei

~~Friends Forever~~

mei jee, me, xiao wen n yee wei

steamboat prepare our ownself

the tall christmas tree at KLCC!!

This chritmas tree is small but full of accesories!

I enjoy much on that day.. :) thanks u guys!

Nothing is impossible!

2008-12-28T18:29:00.000+08:00

BEFORE

AFTER

YES i have done it! So u oso can! hahahaha... its not easy!! wohoooooo....

她

2008-12-18T18:21:00.000+08:00

她，坚持简单就是快乐，但是有时，她把自己变得复杂化，忧愁，担心。
就算芝麻豆类的事情，她还是会一颗一颗的计较，
就算是别人的事，还是天下大事，她还是会想，结果发如雪了，她累了。
她，拥有一颗难以相信别人的心，她宁可承担一切，也不想麻烦到别人。
她永远打不开自己的心窗，虽然她知道‘看开点，人自然会开心’的道理。
有时她无意间替自己戴上了面具也不知道，坚持认为面具上的那人才是她自己，
直到你把她的面具给脱了，直到你告诉她，休息吧，你快不行了。
不然她不懂累的程度是哪里。

当某些人对她好时，她会有少少的提防心，因为害怕过去，害怕教训。
可是她擅长隐藏自己的害怕和那颗提防心，她把她的弱点藏到谷里去。
其实，当你说不出他的弱点时，不是因为她完美，而是你不够了解她。
你可能永远不会完全了解她，因为她有时也不了解她自己。
她常脸戴笑容，就算伤心，她也不会表露出来，最多也只是一个苦瓜脸，
因为她不想让别人知道她不快乐，不开心。

她能信任的人相信只有抚养她长大的双亲，那唯一可靠，不会欺骗她的人，
让她觉得安全，舒服。所以，在爸妈面前，她不会说谎。
如果她说谎，也因为她真的有苦衷。

她很少会在别人面前落泪，除非她真的受伤了，
否则再感动的一套戏，她也只会小小声，悄悄的，轻轻的落一滴泪。
不然她只会躲在枕头下哭泣。她只有两次在同一个朋友面前真正哭泣的经验。

她在家有一个好朋友，从七岁陪她到现在的朋友。
这朋友永远是她的听众，虽然有时他好像似懂非懂。
这朋友对她的意义非常大，可能你认为失去了再找新的就可以了啊，
可是新的对她来说很陌生，就算找到了一个百分百相似，
可是那种感觉已不存在了。

想要打开她的心窗，真的不容易，因为她把唯一的钥匙藏了起来，
能解开的钥匙可能只有时间。
她心里深处藏着很多话，因为她认为少一句，就会少烦恼和误解，
因为相信祸从口出。她有时会耍脾气，因为想让被人了解她的心情，
虽然口口念念说那人几衰，可是不到二十四小时，她就会忘记了。
除非她真的生气了，那她会牢牢的记住。
可是她有理智的想法，有些事情她都会想后果，除非是她不介意的事情。

她第一次认真的思考自己。。。她还是不了解她自己。她又失眠了。